I was about to step out of the subway car at my station along with a dozen other passengers when a man appeared in the middle of the open door stepping in halting the flow. He had an odd expression on his face. He was unfocused. “F^ck you.” He addressed nobody in particular in a loud and angry voice. He was a big man pushing himself forward forcing everyone else around him to give way. I looked back to see his face. He looked ahead as if he saw no one. He wore blue jeans and a faded shirt. I think he was lonely.